All I have done today is eat!
I am stuck in some sort of self destruct cycle and I cant seem to get out of it!
I woke up this morning and had 2 slices of cold pizza and 2 double chocolate muffins followed by about 4 cups of coffee.
I have sat at the computer all day long, ignored the housework which needs to be done, climbed over mountains of washing.
It's awful ... it's lazy ... and I hate it ... but I cant seem to get that last little bit of motivation to actually do something. And the more I think about it, the worse I am!
Help!
Jools61
That's why I'm glad I can't eat sometimes. If I just have that little bit of freedom I would eat the pizza and muffins and tell myself I would have nothing else to eat for the rest of the day. I'd still carry on eating though 
you sound just like be babe!! i started to look at cambridge last year, but i had to get my head round it and also christmas out of the way. i made up my mind when to start and until then i just carried on eating 'normally' - no point in stressing out about it if the woman is away until the 27th. but you do need to WANT to do the cambridge, or else i don't think it would work. i'm 5' 6.5 and weighed, at my heaviest, 22 stone, when i started this i weighed 20 stone something, can't remember. i have been overweight since i was 11 and am now 45 almost 46 - this is the first time i have ever REALLY wanted to lose weight, and i think that's why i am coping. the fact i am NOT eating food at all is, actually, making it easier, which probably sounds weird. keep reading peoples stuff, have a look at the message board at cambridgedieters.co.uk i think it is, that will inspire you as well. this blog-sphere is a great support network though as well.